realization

yes, i change my blog around too often.
and yes i always say to myself i'm going to get better about blogging. most of the time that doesn't happen.
BUT, this time around i really am going to be better about it. there is just too much to say and no one to really say it to.
i have some of the greatest friends, don't get me wrong, but a lot of them i feel as if i can't express my feelings or thoughts with them. so, with that being said, i have turned to blogging in order to write out my feelings. i figure this is much better than holding it all in.

so, here goes.

a few things i have kept in mind going into my second year of school:
-don't pretend to be someone you're not. this is essentially your clean slate. don't dirty it with things that aren't you.
-actually go to class. skipping class because you "don't wanna go" isn't going to cut it. your teacher doesn't care that you aren't there because you're paying for it.
-surround yourself with people that are going to build you up. this goes along with sticking to your true self. don't lower or change your standards to "fit in."
-don't take your close, true friends for granite. they are always going to be there, but that doesn't mean you can expect them to always be around.
-stay close to your family. just because you've moved out doesn't make you too cool for them. they are still your family, and honestly they are the most important people who matter the most.

some of these things i am still working on, but mostly this is for those freshman who think they are entitled to everyone. i was once in that same situation, but looking back now these are definitely the things i wish i was working harder on.
thank heavens for growing up.

settled

it's finally safe to say that i have settled back into the life of a college student.
i'm back onto my tight, non-existant budget. although i still did abide by my tight budget during the summer months, it has become much more strict.
i'm back to my "starving student" menu. thank the heavens above my parents still let me come over to raid the pantry.
i'm finally unpacked and organized at the apartment.
school has finally started and i'm finally back into a routine.

i've returned

yeah, it's been quite a while since i last posted. which isn't a good thing.
i decided to get back into the swing of blogging because;
handwriting takes way too long
i might as well write down my thoughts rather than keep them in my head
so many things have happened in the last five months

alright, lets begin this long, endless post.
i moved home in may which was a good decision. dixie just wasn't the place for me, but i did learn a whole lot about myself while i was gone. i learned what kind of person i never wanted to be, and i learned a lot from my past mistakes. uvu will be the place to be in the fall and i can't even describe the good vibes i'm getting from it.
this summer was filled with realization that i'm no longer a kid anymore and that i was growing up. it's a bitter sweet feeling. i would have thought that last summer, but this was filled with many events.
i realized that i have the best friends anyone could ask for and things were changing. we were all going our seperate ways and growing up.
i'm so proud of each of them and the decisions that they are making. this fall will be a new, fresh start. things are looking up and i'm excited to see how the sememester pans out.

i want my rent back;

here is a list of all the problems we've had in apartment 21:

• leaking bathroom ceiling
• mold in the bathrooms
• section of the ceiling missing for 2 months
• broken thermostat
• mold on the walls
• mold behind furniture

well today folks we discovered more mold growing in the kitchen cabinets.
oh, and to top it off the dryer breaking.

WHAT MORE DO WE NEED.

one of the worst questions you could ask someone:

are you crabby today?
first of all, who in their right mind asks someone this? asking this question will probably just make someone crabby. it's a fact. if i went to the grocery store alone that does not, in any shape or form, mean that i am grumpy/crabby/annoyed or mad. it simply means that i went to the grocery store. is it possible to just do things on my own without being questioned?

polish & paychecks

i'm pleased to announce i added a new color choice to my nail polish collection.

i've never been a huge fan of the color salmon, but i couldn't help but fall in love with it.

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i also got paid yesterday.

i forgot what the feeling of getting income was.

19 years;

balloons courtesy of abbie, maryjane, and amber

delicious red velvet with cream chees frosting cupcakes

my favorite

a birhday package containing house seasons 2 and 3, multiple cards, and a missionary letter

the new wallet i had been drooling over at target

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19 hasn't been too bad yet.